Beautiful

Whenever you feel sad may love brighten your days,
Whenever you're lost may a friend show you the way,
Love yourself-You're just the way you're supposed to be,
Because no matter what, you're beautiful to me.

No More

No, I am no beautiful.

My lips speak too many lies,

Each one steals a piece of me

As the good within me dies.

No I am not beautiful.

My eyes closed to your aches,

Absorbed in my own grief,

As your heart silently breaks.

No I am not beautiful.

I’ve hurt too many lives,

Ruined countless moments,

To which I had no right.

See all I have done,

Witness all I’ve wrought,

Don’t tell me I’m beautiful-

I know that I’m not.

Circles





You make yourself weak

Or you make yourself strong;

It doesn’t matter,

In the end you're still wrong



Sacrifice your dreams.

For the sake of another,

You're so martyresque,

How worthless, a bother.



So you strive ahead,

With you own goals in mind;

For shame! Acquiesce

She's better-step behind.



Perfecting your work,

At the cost of all else,

You try much too hard,

Take some time for yourself.



I'll change as you wish,

Correct my mistake,

Wrong again? I'm sorry,

I'll retract my new break.



I should lose five pounds?

Oh now I’m too thin?

Okay, it’s fixed. Now I’m-

Fat!? Can I ever win?



I'm rather confused,

Still one more fault I'm sure,

I don't know my left

From my right anymore!



You're a fool if you do,

Worse yet if you don't,

You can tell me to change,

But this time, I won't.

                Together

·         Sometimes-

·         I hug you,

·         And you kiss me,

·         And we are-happy.

·         Lost

·         To love a broken heart,

·         To nurse a chronic wound,

·         To hope for the impossible,

·         To put my faith in you.

·          

·         To promise the whole world,

·         To declare undying love,

·         To rise in the morning-

·         When you cannot see the sun.

·          

·         To send prayers to deaf ears,

·         To wish the past undone,

·         To foolishly believe-

·         I could ever be enough.

Week 3

                                                                          Questions

Tell me when this will all go away,

Someone please promise me I’ll be okay,

Show me where I must go to escape,

Take my trembling hand, keep me safe,

Don’t let me give up no matter how hard I fall,

Push me onwards as I struggle to crawl,

Find me the girl I once used to be,

I can’t find her myself, where is she?

Apologies

Forgive me my lies, forget my mistakes,

Accept my struggles, remember my faith,

Let go of the pain I have caused you my love,

No matter how hard I tried it was never enough,

I want to heal the wounds I have made in your heart,

Undo all this harm I never wanted to cause,

Let me try to once again make things right,

And kiss the scars which brought tears to your eyes.

Names

I am Rachel,

I have cried, and still laugh,

Have been hurt, yet I love,

Wished to give up, but now see hope,

Have been wounded, now I’m healing.

Unequal

I told you

I loved you-

You asked how much.

I cried-

You asked me why.

I couldn’t tell you-

How could I explain

That no matter how much I loved you,

I knew,

It would never,

Be enough.

Tears,

In trying to love the whole world I have fallen so short,

All I wanted to do was love, but instead all I have done is hurt,

In trying to ease sorrows I have only caused more,

All my efforts carried you farther from their cures,

In trying to bring you to a place of peace,

All I succeeded in doing was to cause more grief,

In trying to fulfill a task which of me was never asked,

All the good I tried to do was stained so black,

Looking back at all I've ruined my eyes weep,

Selfishly for my own flaws; I deserve all I've reaped.

Stronger

I want to be stronger than this,

I want to be okay again,

I want to be free of this guilt, this shame,

free of all this unbearable pain,

I want to smile again and laugh,

I want you to forgive me for all I've done,,

Promise me you’ll never leave me,

One more time let me see the sun

Please know how much I love you,

See how hard everyday I'm trying,

Remind me of all I’m living for,

Hold me in your arms while I am crying,

Don’t lose faith in me,

I am stronger than you know,

Stronger than before,

Strong enough to hope,

 capable of growth

The Truth

Please tell me there is hope for me,

This isn’t how I wanted to be,

Please tell me I deserve better than this,

I want to know a day of peaceful bliss,

Please tell me my future will be brighter,

I want to be my life’s own writer,

Please tell me I’ll reach a better place,

I want to feel a smile touch my face,

Please tell me that you’ll hold my hand,

I want to you to give me strength to stand,

Please tell me what I fail to see,

I want to know my own beauty,

Please tell me freedom is my right,

I want desperately to succeed in this fight,

Please tell me I’ll experience all the joys of life,

I want to silence this inner strife,

Please tell me I’ll be given back my stolen youth,

I want so much for this to be the truth.

Waiting

Thrown about by the tormenting wind,

Pummeled with unrelenting rain,

So lost, and all alone,

Struggling to find her way,

Searching for a sanctuary,

Amid the violence of the storm,

A place to rest, to dream, to grow,

Her own place in the world,

Wearied from the journey,

Yet exhilarated by new life,

Sinking in deep roots,

Stretching upwards, towards the sky,

The tiny seed begins to blossom,

Petals open wide.

Some days the rain still comes,

Gales will shake the fragile stem,

Still, she grows stronger every day,

Unfettered by the tempest.

One such insubstantial seed of hope,

In each of us resides,

Waiting to be born,

Patiently, for life.

Radiance

Curled around your finger,

I reflect the silver light,

Once a shining beacon of love,

I no longer glow so bright,

I offer no defense,

To the things you put me through,

Every day I grow more tarnished,

Sort of, just like you.

An ornament on a keychain,

That unlocks the gates of Hell,

A stand a silent witness,

As you ring the morbid bell,

I’m with you ‘til the end,

Whatever that may be,

We’ll get through this together,

The pair of us, you and me.

We are forever changed,

We can’t undo the past,

But we can wash away the grime,

Give this face a fighting chance,

But I guess I’m just a ring,

It’s not my choice what you do,

Still I beg you, let me shine again,

Hear your heart-It wants to too.

·         Love Me

Someday I want to be Beautiful,
I want you to love me,
And I want to love myself too,

Someday I want to be Happy,
I want to dance with you and laugh,
And I want to see a rainbow and smile,

Someday I want to be Brave,
I want you to hold my hand as I fight this battle,
And I want to walk all over my greatest fears.

Someday I want to be Strong,
I want you to help me tear down these walls,
And I want to run through God's most beautiful meadow,

Someday I want to be Proud of myself,
I want you to change the world with me,
And I want to be good enough,

Someday I want to be Free,
I want you to kiss me and break these chains,
And I want to breathe without the weight of the world,

Can you imagine such a day?
I can. Lord let it come one day.

Hold Me

More than anything I want someone to hold me,

To love me forever and always,

To kiss away my troubles,

To tell me I’m beautiful,

More than anything I want someone to hold me,

To wipe away my tears,

To catch me when I fall,

To whisper in my ear that it will all be okay,

More than anything I want someone to hold me,

To carry me when I’m weak,

To hold my hand when I’m scared,

To nurse me when I’m ill,

More than anything I want someone to hold me,

To make me smile when I’m sad,

To show me the way when I am lost,

To make me laugh when I want to hide,

More than anything I want someone to hold me,

To promise me a better tomorrow,

To stand by my side always,

To share with me love and strength,

More than anything I want someone to hold me,

And I want to hold someone too.